Desk Space

Behelit:

This object is a very odd red looking thing. It is a disfigured face more or less. It comes from a manga (Japanese comic book) series called Berserk. In the story people who have these things are allowed one wish when they are near death. Before they die, the disfigured face becomes a figured face. The eyes open, tears of blood start to come out of the eyes and the mouth opens like it is screaming in horror. At this point, the individual with the Behelit is asked a “small” sacrifice for the power to control their fate and prevent their death. The individual is asked to sacrifice the people they love most in the world to be transformed into a demon that is virtually unstoppable.

I have this here because it says something about human nature. It reminds me how people are sometimes the most selfish in their greatest moment of despair. Sometimes people are willing to sacrifice anything for power, even the things they care most about. In a way, this makes me also think about all the people who spend their time working to the “top,” but they neglect friends and family. It is a clear reminder not to be consumed with power and money. It is not a coincidence that it is on my work desk.

Dragon picture:

I decided to pick this dragon picture because it represents the duality of life. This does not necessarily imply good and evil, but it can. It can also symbolize men and women, night and day etc. These things are neither good nor bad, just things that complement each other. It is a natural way of being. I also decided on this picture because I like dragons, ever since I was a kid. So, this picture handles a philosophical issue and a childhood infatuation.

Perspective:

On my desk there is a book stand. The book stand only has two legs and there is a third piece of wood connected at the top of the legs. This top of piece of wood serves as a shelf for books or other objects. So, naturally everything between the two legs is empty space. On my desk my laptop is naturally set to the right and I am always looking at a blank wall when I look to the left. On the back wall, I would put the picture of the dragons. The Behelit, (red looking thing) on the other hand, is a necklace. I would hang it on the right of my laptop on the top of the book shelf, so that it hangs down. It would hang far enough down that I could be looking at my laptop screen and I would be able to it out of the corner of my eyes.

Since, my desk is naturally messy; the Behelit would not stand out all that much. It would stand out enough to catch people’s attention because it is red. Everything on my desk is black or grey. They would probably look at it. Therefore, I would proceed to explain to them what it symbolizes. As for the picture, a person came around sat at my desk or came to look at what I was working on; they would run into the dragon picture.

In each of these cases, the person would only see the strange looking Behelit or the dragon portrait. Each is separated from each other because of the book shelf. If the person saw both, it would mean that a person is looking at duality and the dark side of human nature.

Finally at night when I am sleeping, I usually have the door closed. From my bed when I am facing my desk and my door, I will see a transition between my younger self on the right and my older self on the left. I see moral/philosophical questions with the dragon and Behelit on the left at the “desk space.” Then on the right, I see childhood strategy games. This allows me to reminisce when I want to and track my growth in a way. At one point I was only a strategy game nerd and now I’m a “philosopher.”

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